—

I am merely the product
Of the life that I’ve lived
An amalgam of sorrows
And the wisdom they give
But the weight has grown heavy
And its dragging me down
It’s so hard not to sink now
But I don’t want to drown

I can reach for the surface
And try to pull myself free
But the last thing I want is
To drag you down here with me

Anyway. For the last few days I’ve been casually trying to figure out what that song really is about. Just like Mr Pink deducing that Madonnas “Like A Virgin” is really about well-endowed members of the male species I have now figured out the true meaning of this song.

It’s about a man who has multiple personalities. Or in this case, dual personalities. He shares his head with the personality of a psychotic serial-killing woman. Mostly the main character is in control, but occasionally he loses control and the other personality takes over, perpetrating horrible crimes while he watches, unable to do anything.

This is evidenced in several lines, and once I realized this the rest was obvious.

You frighten me
You spy on me
You’re scaring me
You care for me

He’s scared of this other personality since it’s so violent. The other personality also protects him, knowing that they can only co-exist in the same body, thus she tries (unsuccessfully as it would seem) to shield him from the knowledge of her.

She’s living in the house

Of course, since they share the same body they also share the same house.

She knows my body inside out

Again, since it’s a body shared by two personalities she knows his body inside out and is familiar with all the quirks.

I don’t recall when this affair began
She was simply there

I would guess that maybe he developed this other personality due to some traumatic event in his life? Who knows. One day she simply appeared.

Sometimes I watch her kill
Cold eyes and no restraint
And I wonder how it feels
To annihilate a friend

When he loses control and she takes over he can still see through the eyes and watch her do her deeds. He sees the acts she performs, but don’t understand the emotion that drives it.

You frighten me
It’s getting harder to conceal
You spy on me
All my secrets are revealed

Since the two personalities are aware of each other it would seem that aspects of their existence bleed over onto each other, and they can watch each other “inside” the shared brain. So far he might have managed to keep his thoughts private, but it would seem she’s figuring out ways around it.

So, what do you think? Am I correct in deducing this or am I completely wrong here?

You frighten me
You spy on me
You’re scaring me
You care for me

You’re scaring me
A play on words for us to see
You care for me
I find this harder to believe